Monday, November 20, 2017
"Look at how lonely you are.." Tease Jiwon as she took a seat in front of Sora who is having her lunch--alone.
Sora continue to eat her salad and reading her exam notes--not giving a single look at Jiwon. Its the final week for the semester before she's able to close the painful chapter and move on.
Jiwon looked at Sora who is obviously ignoring her existance before pouring a glass of orange juice that she hold into Sora’s salad.
Sora looked directly to her eyes as she put down her cutlery. "What do you want from me?" She sounds agitated.
"Hah.. look at that arrogance.." Jiwon sneered. "The chaebols are fighting with each other right now because of you.."
Sora squinting her eyes trying to figure out whether what she's saying is true. "So what?" Pretending not to be bothered by it.
"You are really one of a kind Kang Sora.. after all the fuss you've created, you didn't care more about what happened to them.."
Sora sneered as she hugs her arms and crossed her legs. "Miss.. You created this mess."
"Well.." She's clearing up her throats. "They were fighting because of you. Don't you feel anything?" She asked.
Sora laughed. "I seriously don't understand why you are so interested with my matters. Don't you have something else to do?"
"If its relates to Juhwan, it is my matter too.."
"Don't you think Juhwan has been pretty obvious with his feelings?"
"No! He just got distracted with your existance. He loves me still.."
Sora sneered. Amazed with how her delusional mind works. "What ever you are saying Jiwon shhi.." she picks up her books and getting up from the chair.
"I'm still not finished.." Jiwon look at her.
"I am though.. I don't think we have anything else to talk about.."
"Kang Sora.." Jiwon holds Sora's arms while biting her lips. "This is my last resort. I might get sick and tired of him one day, but i'm not able to let him go yet today.." Jiwon's eyes started to get teary. Being honest with her feelings.
"Kim Jiwon.." Sora speechless. Somehow she can feel some honesty in her feelings right now. Perhaps she just don't know other ways to win Juhwan's heart again--other than being such a mean person.
"I've made mistakes.. everybody does. But I realize that the moment the thought of losing him struck me when I saw him with you. I know then that I can't live without him. I know I've made mistakes for breaking up our engagement.."
"Engagement?" Sora sunk for a few moment hearing that words. She never knew they were that serious.
"Please Kang Sora.." Jiwon holds her hands firmer. "I'm begging you.."
Sora smiled. "Seeing you honestly confessed like this.. it feels good"
“What are you trying to say?” Jiwon squints her eyes.
“This is how you should treat others.” She then let go of her hands from her.
Jiwon look at her. Sighed. “Kang Sora..”
Sora smiled before walking away.
Sora looked at Juhwan who's been setting up his shooting gears. As expected that he's going to be at the shooting club.
"Good morning Lim Juhwan.." She called him.
Juhwan looked at Sora for a while. The woman that has been avoiding him and his friends since that day appeared before his eyes. She must have heard about what had happened. He thought to himself.
Sora went nearer before she realized the bruises on his face. "You're fighting again? With Insung or Jongki this time?" She asked. Seems like what Kim Jiwon had told her yesterday afternoon is true.
"I'm not going to talk about it.." He replied.
Sora pulled his hand. "Look here.." She turn him to face hers. "Why are you doing this to yourself?" She caresses his cheek.
Juhwan pushed asay her hand. "Just let me be.."
Sora sighed. "Get mad at me Juhwan. I'm the one who was not able to make a decision.."
Juhwan went silent.
"It would be much easier if I just disappear don't you think?" Sora playfully asked.
"What are you saying?" He stares deeply into her eyes. Despite her playful tone, her eyes shows some seriousness with what she said.
"Just a coward tought.." She giggles before looking at him. "I don't feel like I'm able to choose any of you guys. All of you are precious to me.."
He sighed as he took his shotgun.
"You're angry don't you?" Sora looked at his changed expression.
"No.." He replied.
"Jeez.." She mumbles as Juhwan is ignoring her and walk towards the shooting area. Filling in his shotgun with bullets.
Sora grab the shotgun from his hand and aims to the projectiles.
She shouts before shooting down both of the pallets. She took out the bulletcase out of the shotgun and gave it to him back. "We're not done with our conversation yet.." She sharply glares at him.
"Kang Sora.." He was stunned seeing how much she has improved with her shooting skills. Impressive.
"Just get mad at me.. why do you have to hide your feelings?"
"I'm not mad at you.."
"If you are not, why do you keep fighting among yourself?!"
Juhwan look down. "I got jealous..”
"I know this will happen somehow..” Sora sighed. "Lets just stop. I love all of you equally as my friend. All of you are equally important to me.."
Juhwan sighed. This seems like an endless battle.
Sora saw his frustrations upon her words. "I'm sorry.." Sora cupped his hand.
Juhwan grabs her hand and pull her towards him but Sora stopped him.
“Can’t we kiss to see whether you really don’t have that feelings towards me?”
Sora stares deeply into that eyes. “Lim Ju Hwan..”
“You don’t know how fast my heart is beating right now..” He hold her hands and put it on his chest before giving her a warm kiss.
Sora was stunned for a few second before she softly push him away. "Lets not do this.." politely she refused.
"Kang Sora.. I.."
"Lets remain as good friends Lim Juhwan.. I really mean it" She does not allow Juhwan to finish his sentence. "I want to keep only the good memories.."
Juhwan speechless hearing her words. His hearts feels broken seeing her walking away.
She looked at the naked cherry blossom tree along the street heading to the academic block. This place would be among the beautiful place in campus during spring. She closes her eyes enjoying the soft wind of end winter while imagining the spring that she will not able to experience this year. She sigh softly.
Sora looked at the white ferrari at the other side of the road is making a u-turn.
"Where are you going?" Insung greeted.
"Having a stroll before heading back home.." She bended her knees as she properly looked at his face.
“So it was you who fights with Juhwan?” Sora asked as she opened the door and get in the car without being invited.
She looked at the bruises on his lips and eyes. “Look at what you have done to yourself..” she caresses his cheek for a bit.
"You've met him?" Insung asked.
"I'm always 2 steps behind.." He sighed. No matter how much he wants to be positive with Sora's feelings, he always feels like he was placed last among the three of them.
"Lets have some talk.. Drive me back home" she said as she buckled herself to the carseat.
Insung looked at her. "Your car?"
"I can just pick it up tomorrow.." she‘s serious.
Insung nodded before his car rumbled away from the campus.
“I’ve given a deep thoughts on our friendship..” Sora open up the topic.
“If you’re going to reject me, keep those words to yourself..” Insung replied without waiting for Sora to finish her words.
Sora looked at him. “Seems like you have prepared for anything..”
“I’m not.. But I don’t want to be hurt hearing it..” He speeds up his car.
Sora looked at the road before staring at his serious face. “I didn’t know you had this anger in you..”
Insung ignored her words and keep speeding his car in the middle of busy Seoul city at 200km/h heading to Sora’s house.
Sora remain silent.
“I didn’t choose any of you..” Sora told him as Insung parked his car infront of her house gate. Calmly.
Insung looked at her. “What do you mean?”
“I’m not choosing anybody..”
"Why not? Why its not me?" He asked.
Sora looked at him. Silent.
Insung bit his lips. "Is it that Woo Bin guy?"
"No.." Sora looked at him. "I like the three of you equally the same. And that is my problem.."
"Sora.." He looked at the person that excites him whenever he's with. Sora is truly someone that could give some excitement to his heart unlike other woman he had dated before. She's one of a kind.
Sora cupped his cheek while caressing his bruises. "I'm sorry.."
Insung pulled her hand and hold it tightly. "Give it a deeper thought Kang Sora.." He's not able to let go the person that holds the real definition of love to him.
Sora shakes her head. "The answer will still the same.."
"What should I do then? I really don't think I'm able to live without you.."
"You'll live.. and you need to keep living to found someone that can excites you more me.."
"I'm sorry.." She shrugs her hand from him. "Thank you for the ride.." Sora smiled as she get off the car.
"Sora!" Insung get out of the car rushing towards her and pull her to his embrace. "Let me hug you at least.." he requested.
Sora smiled before hugging him back. "Thank you my friend.."
He close his eyes as he heard those words. Friend. Not a person that he wanted to be to her.
Sorry dearest readers as I only update this series now. I’m quite busy with my new bundle of joys and becoming a mother to a 5 months son. After years of waiting 😊
Nevertheless I would like to thank all of you who keep reading and give support.
Sunday, June 4, 2017
The fans are screaming as they were waiting for the appearance of main lead actress for drama series 'Agent' at the airport as Sora was scheduled for a flight to Shanghai for their drama promotions and commercials after the drama has finished filming.
Sora got out of her car as she looked at those people swarmed into the airport lobby. She never realized that the drama got so much attention from the public. A group of bodyguards swiftly cleared a path for Sora to move towards passport and immigration check point.
"Don't be worried and just continue walking.. The bodyguards will take care of everything. I’ll join you later." Mary told her.
Sora nodded as she walks towards the counter for immigration clearance with bodyguards on their left and right.
[She's so beautiful!!] People are screaming seeing how beautiful Sora is in real life.
Suddenly the situation becoming berserk with noise and screams.
[Hyunbin is here!!!] They shouted.
Sora stopped and look at where the people's attention got diverted. She's surprised.
"Yeobo.." Hyunbin grabs her hand and smiled.
"What are you doing here?" She squints.
He move towards her ears and whispered. "Let’s not hide anymore.." He said as he pulled her to walk with him towards the counter.
Sora looked at his hand that's tightly holding hers as she observed at the fans that are screaming excitedly.
"How dare you're doing a stunt here.." Park Haejin teased while giving a fake glares at Hyunbin as they arrive at the checkpoint.
Hyunbin laughed. "Thanks to your internal information.. She would not tell me her schedule.." He looked at Sora.
Sora squint her eyes looking at both gentlemen. "Seriously what's with both of you..?”
They laughed. "He's a good friends that has helped me a lot.." Hyunbin grab Haejin's shoulders.
"So that means..."
"That’s your own potential which the director sees.." Haejin knows what she's going to ask. He does help in getting her for the audition at first, but the rest are her own talent that's doing the job.
She glares at him.
"I swear.. It’s the truth.."
Hyunbin holds her hand. "I know how egoistic my wife is. I wouldn't go that far.." He smiled.
"We need to go.. Our flight is boarding soon.." Haejin said to Sora.
Sora nodded as she looked at Hyunbin. Now that he's here at the airport she feels a bit reluctant to leave her husband behind. But she also knows Hyunbin is busy with his own schedule. Making time to come to the airport today must not be easy. Let alone the explanation that he needs to do to his company later on.
"I need to go.." she extended both her hands towards him.
Hyunbin holds her hands. "Come back safely.."
She nodded. "What are we going to do with the media coverage later?" Whatever happened today will cause hype in the media for sure. It will be hard to contained.
Hyunbin pulls her to his embrace. "We'll tell the truth.."
"Where are we going?" Sora has been asking for a few times but Hyunbin keep on silent without muting anything. Sora looked at the road and signboards that are available but nothing rings a bell. After a while, she started to get sleepy due silence accompanied with the strong sunset lights.
"We are here.." Hyunbin pull his car over at one place after 3 hours of driving. He took a glance at Sora as he realized she was sound asleep. "No wonder you've been silent.."
Hyunbin turn to the window as a glimpse of a man in black robes welcoming their arrival. He opened the door and hug that well-known figure. "How are you *father*?" The person that has been taking after him since he was born until the moment he decided to move to Seoul to chase for his dream.
"I'm fine." He caresses Hyunbin's face, the child that he missed the most. "Where is Sora?" He asked.
He looked into the car seeing Sora innocently asleep on the passenger seat. He smiled. "I've prepared a room. Bring Sora in, both of you must be tired."
Hyunbin nodded before heading towards the passenger side and hold Sora up on his arms to the room.
"Dinner is in the kitchen if you're hungry.. Other child already gone for bed." He smiled. "Goodnight Hyunbin.." He taps his shoulder before leaving the room.
Hyunbin slightly bowed. "See you tomorrow morning *Father*.." his eyes are following the old man's step that is not as strong as how it used to be. It’s almost 5 years since he moved to Seoul but only now he's able to visit Hampyeong, where the orphanage that was once their home located. The place that brings a lot of memory between him and Sora. The place that they grew up together.
Hyunbin turned to his wife who's been sleeping. He stares at the face at that used to be his lullaby before going to bed. Now her face occupied lots of billboard and commercial advertisement in respond to the latest trend and phenomenon in the television through her drama acting with Park Haejin. He sighed as he went to wash his body before going to bed.
"Where are we?" Sora woke up from her sleep as her stomach growls. She looked around the room that she's in and then she suddenly heard the sound of running water from the bathroom. "What happened?!" She's surprised as she looked at her clothes that's still on her. Perfectly untouched. She's relieved.
Sora immediately lie down and closed her eyes as the bathroom door is opened. The smells of Bvlgari Homme shower gel is filling in the room-- she sniffed. "Hyunbin?" Sora discreetly opened her eyes trying to see the glimpse of tall man coming out of the bathroom only with a towel covering from waist until his knee. For a while Sora looked at that body -- Hyunbin seems to be building up his body a lot this past few months.
Hyunbin turned to Sora after he realized that she was wide awake looking from the mirror's reflection but she's fast to close her eyes and faking her sleep again.
Hyunbin sneered as he slowly climbed the bed. "Open your eyes.. I know you're awake.." He softly talk near to her ears.
Sora surprised-- Hyunbin's face is just a few inch away when she opened her eyes. Their eyes met.
Hyunbin looked straight to those eyes as he was drawn closer to her lips and eventually they kissed. The lips that he's been longing to kiss.
She closes her eyes as their lips met. It has been awhile, lips.
Suddenly her stomach started to growl, trying to give a signal to its owner. She push him off her.
Hyunbin smiled looking at his wife. "Wake up.. Join me to the kitchen.." He said.
"Kitchen?" Sora squint her eyes trying to recall this place.
Hyunbin stares at her reaction. "Don't you recognize where we are now?"
Sora bit her lips before shaking her head.
Hyunbin softly flick her head. "It’s the orphanage you dory memory head.." referring to her short term memory loss.
"Really???" She's surprised as she immediately jump off the bed to open the window-- looking directly to the small lake that she's familiar with. "We must be in the back room right?" She asked him trying to remember the layout to the 18 rooms’ cottage belongs to Preist Kim Da Myeong that was converted into an orphanage.
This very room was used to be her room with some other girls before. Now the layout of the room has been changed into a guest room. Sora smiled looking at those surroundings that she's been missing.
"Wash up.. I'll wait for you in the kitchen.." Hyunbin said again before heading to the kitchen to warm up some dinner.
After a while, Sora came down to the kitchen wearing the same dress she wears earlier--a soft pink knee length one piece dress. "I don't have other outfit.. Thanks to you.." she sharply glares.
Hyunbin scratches his head. "Let’s figure that out later." He took out 2 bowl of warm rice to accompany the dishes that's already on the table.
"You cook?" She asked though it seems illogically for him to prepare the clam soup, grilled mackerel and egg rolls within a small amount of time.
"Of course.. Not.." He smiled. "*Father* prepared this. Let’s eat before its cold." His stomach also been growling a while ago asking to be feed.
Hyunbin stares at Sora as she slowly digs into the food. Their relationship seems normal now that they are back to where they are started. They have spoken a lot today than the total spoken words with each other for the last 6 months. He's hoping that their relationship can be fixed. Soon.
Step by step she went down the trails near the lake enjoying the memory that she had at this very place. It makes her feel refreshed and healed.
"It’s cold out here.." Hyunbin covers her shoulder with a long black coat that he wears earlier today, before changing into a normal jeans and warm t-shirt.
Sora looked at him. "Where did you get those shirts?" She asked--has been feeling uncomfortable to be wearing the dress from her filming for the whole day.
"In the storage room. *Father* still kept some of our clothes.."
"I've pick up yours too.. I leave it in the room.." He said without being asked.
"Oh.. Thank you. Was thinking of going to look for it in a while.." she awkwardly laughed.
She throws her eyes looking towards the church that's located besides the orphanage home. "Our simple yet beautiful marriage was held there.." She said.
She remembers that day when everybody is busy with the housekeeping after a wedding ceremony--Hyunbin proposed to her and they got married in front of *Father*. It was the most beautiful wedding for her. It was the wedding that moves her heart.
That's right, those are the actual feeling that she felt that then. Those happiness that cannot be described using any words. It’s the feelings that has been lost while they are busy making a living and today those feelings came back.
She looks at the face of her husband that she's been ignoring for the last few months. Her tears fell down unknowingly.
Hyunbin pulls her into his embrace and hugs her tightly.
"I'm sorry.." She said.
Hyunbin shakes his head. "It was all my fault.. I failed to see your feelings. I was too blinded chasing my own dream while it’s supposed to be our dream.." He looked at his wife's face. "I'm sorry.."
Sora smiled before she hugs him back to feel Hyunbin's built chest. She looked to him. "You've been working out?" She asked.
Hyunbin squint his eyes. "Why do you ask such question?"
Sora laughed looking at his reaction. "Your chest feels different.." Before her expression suddenly changed. "Did you went to gym looking for other girls??" She sharply glares at him.
"Aigoo.." He hold her face facing him. "My eyes are only on you my dear.."
Sora playfully shakes her head. "I don't believe in you.."
Hyunbin sneered. "Do you want me to mention what happened this evening?" He said in reference to the hugging scene practice outside of filming time with Park Haejin earlier today.
"Eyy.. That’s obviously for filming purpose.."
"How can I assure that?"
"Just ask Haejin tomorrow then.." Sora sulking.
Hyunbin smiled. "Let’s ask now.." He said before taking out his phone and dialling Haejin's phone.
"You know his number?" Sora asked. Weird.
Hyunbin winked while waiting for the Haejin to pick up his call.
"Hello Hyunbin-ah?" Haejin's voice is on the other side.
"Did both of you knows each other?" Asked Sora hearing the drop in honorific from Haejin's words.
"Kang Sora?" That voice guesses. "Both of you already make up?"
"Eo.. Thanks to you.."
Sora squint her eyes. "Wait.." She took the phone from Hyunbin's hand. "What do you mean by thanking to Haejin?" She asked.
Haejin laughed hearing their cute bickering. "Whatever it is, you need to return to the filming set tomorrow Kang Sora.. There's a few more scenes pending to be shot for Tuesday's episode." He said before hang up the phone.
Sora turn to Hyunbin. "I think you owe me a lots of explanation.."
"Let’s go to sleep.. I'm tired.." Hyunbin suspiciously smiled.
Sora crossed her arms. "Not until I get the answer.."
Hyunbin ignores her sulking and walk straight to the room.
"Ya Kim Tae Pyung!" Sora hissed as she follows him to the room. "Kim Tae Pyung?" Sora enters the room to see Hyunbin already laying on the bed with his eyes close.
Sora sighed. "Fine.. Let’s separate for real.." She said.
"Ya Kang Sora!" In a split of second Hyunbin got off the bed standing in front of Sora, looking directly to her eyes. "Don't play those kind of jokes.."
"I'm not joking.." Sora's stern. Not showing any feelings.
"Seriously it’s not funny.. Cut it out.." Hyunbin said.
Sora turn her body walking towards the door.
"Kang Sora!" He pulls her from the door. "Seriously don't.."
Sora steals a kiss on his lips. She smiled.
Hyunbin looked at her. Mad. "I can't believe you make a joke out of that.."
"Are you angry?" Sora asked but he ignores.
She looked at his face. Serious. "I'm truly sorry.." She kiss his lips again this time but Hyunbin was not responding to it either. Sora look at him for a few second before she turn her gaze to the floor.
Hyunbin pulls her body to his arms and bring her to bed before kissing her. "Don't you ever do that again.. Never say those words again." he said.
Sora nodded as she continue to kiss him. The feeling that she's been missing.
The feeling that he's been missing.